Harleighs gone.. : ( just for the night though...lol

well Harleigh is off with her Grandpa Al for the night. Hope everything is going to be ok...im sure it will be. Friday nights are my nights to sleep through the nights. So im looking forward to that! But i am postive that i will miss her. I hate leaving her, but i gotta get use to it if shes going to be in daycare! Me and Ken also need a night together, just hanging out.
Ive got work tomorrow, then my cousin is throwing a surpirse birthday party for my aunt. Im excited about that! It should be fun! I hope me and Ken get off work in time. Oh man how embarrassing that would be if we showed up right when my aunt showed up. ahhh I would die!!!! But hopefully that wont happen. lol

OK there is one thing i cant get off my mind. Its the Prayer of Jabez. Im kind of going through hard time in my life now and the Prayer of Jabez keeps going through my head. I dont know, I honestly think that God is trying to tell me something. I think hes trying to tell me to trust in Him, and not to worry or stress.....Wow kind of powerful huh? I couldn't remember all of what the prayer says so i got out the book that my mom gave me. Its so weird because in the book there was a poem that a Mom who wrote it for her daughter, and there was also has a letter from my sister to me. Opening that book up i went through ALOT of emotions. You know going through this book helps me realize how much I have forgotten. It helps me see what kind of miracles God can do in my life. It says on every page 'Little Prayer, Giant Prize'. hmm.. You know I wonder why it takes for me to not have anything wroth anything to realize what I'm missing out on. Does that make sense??
As you can tell with all my random post, this blog is really helping me out. You know writing stuff down...or typing it...really helps me go to bed peacefully. It helps me and Kens relationship too, believe it or not. I'm trying to talk him into getting one so that it would help him out too. haha K well that was my therapy for the night. Sorry if anyone reads this and falls asleep..lol...but oh well...hopefully I have some believers reading this and is praying for me and my family. Thanks!

Mommy Me

Ok so Im really tired, Im trying to write on here every night. Last night Ken came home from out of town. It was for work. But he came home with a 101.6 fever. I had to play double mommy. Its hard having a crying baby in one hand and trying to pour med.s for the hubby....hes really not my hubby..YET ; ) I stayed up half the night because Harleigh wouldnt sleep, then also taken care of Ken. Ah im soo nice...lol just kidding. But its nice to have Ken back we really did miss him.

What my job really means to me : )

So Ive started back working on Saturdays. Honestly its kicking my butt!! Like seriously I need to start working out during the week just so that I wont be so tired working that long 8 hour day. And since thats the only day that Im working right now, Im booked up. I mean geez last week I didnt even get a lunch break! So you better believe I walked in and went straight to the front desk and said,"I NEED a lunch break this week...Thanks : )" (in a scarcastic way) lol.
But I do love coming back. I missed all my clients and co-workers. We got some new people working there now and thank the Lord they are all sweet!! Im always weird with new people when it comes to work. But if its like a new client, Im all outgoing and smilely. But when they are new and I have to work with them I kind of have my guard up. I dont know its weird. Am I the only one like that??
But anyways I love being back to work. I love making money. Being out for 2 months really takes a toll on you and honestly on your relationship with your other half. I am a very independant person and it is hard depending on someone. I am so luck that I do have someone that I can depend on. Ken has really stepped up to the plate and has taken care of his family. Without him we honestly would be out on the streets. (Well not really, but you know what I mean). I am just very thankful of him.
Starting Feb I start working Thur. and Saturdays. Cher (a girl that i work with) has offered to watch Harleigh for free while i work. And she lives right around the corner from Emerson Joseph. So that makes me feel better. Shes soo excited to watch Harleigh too, that helpes me trust her even more.
Its crazy when you have a baby, that she is the only thing you can think of. If I have a bad day at work or just in general, I think about how Im doing this for her. How I want to make her life so enjoyable, stress free, and fun. I want to be able to do things for her and with her. The only way I can achieve that is working as hard and often as I can. I love you Harleigh Christina Collins. You are my joy, my hope, my pride, and my life. I will do anything for you baby! ; )

Best Friends

You're...

My Friend,

my companion,

through good times and bad

my friend, my buddy,

through happy and sad,

beside me you stand,

beside me you walk,

you're there to listen,

you're there to talk,

with happiness,

with smiles,with pain and tears,

I know you'll be there,

throughout the years!

If there is one thing that I've learned, it would be that the friendship that one has with his or her sibling, is the strongest friendship that anyone could ask for. Sometime in March, when I found out that I was pregnant and told my sister i knew that from then on out we would grow to be best friends. At first i thought that she might of been mad or upset at me, because she just got married and is older than I am. It was just expected from everybody that she would be the next one pregnant. But honestly she reacted the total opposite from what i thought. Ever since then we have been closer than we ever were. I thank the Lord everyday for my family. He has blessed me with the most supportive, caring family anyone could ask for.

A quick note before I get off here: Friends and Lovers can come and go but FAMILY will always be beside you know matter what.

My First Blog

Hey guys! So this is my first blog. My sister and brother-in-law has one, so I thought I would to. Plus sitting at home all day with an almost 5 week old baby gets boring. She sleeps all day long! Lets see about me...I am a hairstylist, I have been cutting hair for about 2 years. Me and my boyfriend, Ken just moved into a house. We have a daughter together. Her name is Harleigh Christina. Like I said she is almost 5 weeks old. Ken is actually the one who thought of her name. It took me about a day to get use to it, but I fell in love with it. Harleigh definately has her own personality. Shes a great baby, but she will let you know when something is wrong with her. Right now she weights about 8 1/2 pounds, shes a little piggy, she loves her food!!!!! But thats about it for now. Im sure Ill write more later on when I have time.